What is Ruqyah and how should one do it? (website)
Ruqyah for Evil Eye, Black Magic, etc.
It is obvious that you are letting wiswas control your life. You don’t remember it because it wasn’t there. Allah told us in the Quran that the righteous people when they are touched by the wiswas of Satan, they remember Allah and then they are able to see clearly. You should do that. You must not write things to remind you of Kufr as this is one of Satan’s ways to make you believe that this is happening. Ignore these ideas and don’t give them any weight and they will go away by themselves, in sha’ Allah.
And Allah knows best
Video Links:
How to get rid of waswas about Islam?
Suffering from bad thoughts about Allah (new video)
How to get rid of the Whispers of Satan about Kufr etc? - Sheikh Assim Al Hakeem
Getting bad thoughts about Islam and Allah, what should I do?
Get wiswas about shirk and kufr, what to do?
Am I a Kafir? Did I commit Kufr? Should I redo my Shahada?
Smiled at kufr thought, am I a kafir?
I smile whenever I have intrusive thoughts & my iman is decreasing, what to do?
Have intrusive, kufr thoughts, can I just ignore them?
Have intrusive thoughts from satan, am I sinful for them?
Making Sujood while thinking Kufr images in mind?